my life is so wierd
my life is always in an uproar! there is always something happening and always something going on! i dont know what to do sometimes! we'll for starters all of my bills are behind and late! so that royally blows! i dont have the money to pay them....but i do have two job interviews on monday..so thats actually a plus! but now we have to find another place to live because my fiances sister got a foreclosure notice on her house! i mean i hate to say it i mean dont get me wrong i feel bad for them and it completely sucks that that happened to them and i feel super bad but in a way i am kind of glad it happened!!!! i knwo that sounds awful...but i cant stand living here most of the time.....her kids are brats to the max and we are always getting blamed for shit and we just cant do anything without getting bitched at...there is never anything to eat even when we give them money for groceries.......i just cant stand living here and im glad that we are being forced to look for something of our own because ill tell u one thing i hate it here!!!!!
but the real thing that gets me is my fiance....now i have written about him before and alot of people who read that blog probably think...well im sure they think....that im pretty stupid for staying with him.....and part of me thinks that too.....but its such a hard situation.......i mean he talk with me about making plans for our life and future and is always telling me how much he loves me and he treats me good except for the fact of him talking to other girls.....now heres the thing i dont mind him talking to girls that hes been friends with for along time! i mean hey i have guy friends that i talk to alot! thats not the issue...the issue is that when these girls ask if we are together hes either says no or well i wouldnt exactly say that...we are sorta together but she is staying at her moms....well why are u making plans with me and taking me out and all of that and everyone can see we are together when we go out...but when u talk to certain other people u tell them otherwise! i mean awhile back when we had our problems i threatened to leave and he freaked.....he didnt want me to go anywhere.....so we talked and talked and talked these things to death and he stopped for awhile...things were getting better but today i found a convo he had while i was in the shower with his ex....who by the way is one of the uglies people ive ever seen......about how we are sorta still together and he isnt getting an apartment with me and that he said he wanted to have sex with her!! its so confusing...i mean he has no clue that i know about any of the conversations hes had with any of the girls hes talked to and trust me ive saved everyone single one of them i find to have the evidence to back it up in case i ever need to......buti dontknow! my life is strange...i love him mor ethan anything and i love our relationship....and our life and living with him....and i love loving him...i just dotn knwo what to do anymore.....im so confused......
but the real thing that gets me is my fiance....now i have written about him before and alot of people who read that blog probably think...well im sure they think....that im pretty stupid for staying with him.....and part of me thinks that too.....but its such a hard situation.......i mean he talk with me about making plans for our life and future and is always telling me how much he loves me and he treats me good except for the fact of him talking to other girls.....now heres the thing i dont mind him talking to girls that hes been friends with for along time! i mean hey i have guy friends that i talk to alot! thats not the issue...the issue is that when these girls ask if we are together hes either says no or well i wouldnt exactly say that...we are sorta together but she is staying at her moms....well why are u making plans with me and taking me out and all of that and everyone can see we are together when we go out...but when u talk to certain other people u tell them otherwise! i mean awhile back when we had our problems i threatened to leave and he freaked.....he didnt want me to go anywhere.....so we talked and talked and talked these things to death and he stopped for awhile...things were getting better but today i found a convo he had while i was in the shower with his ex....who by the way is one of the uglies people ive ever seen......about how we are sorta still together and he isnt getting an apartment with me and that he said he wanted to have sex with her!! its so confusing...i mean he has no clue that i know about any of the conversations hes had with any of the girls hes talked to and trust me ive saved everyone single one of them i find to have the evidence to back it up in case i ever need to......buti dontknow! my life is strange...i love him mor ethan anything and i love our relationship....and our life and living with him....and i love loving him...i just dotn knwo what to do anymore.....im so confused......
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